Plan Z

You know when you begin to finish one chapter and another one is on the verge of beginning? 

I'm there right now in the book of Jeshi. 

And let me tell you, I really hate the whole endless-unknown-possibilities thing. 

You see, I'm a planner. I plan ahead. I like to know what I'm doing and how I'm getting there etc, etc. I dream up the perfect plan and I execute it to the best of my mortal abilities. But I'm learning that everything I want isn't exactly what The Lord wants for me. When my plan goes off course I tend to panic and question everything. I know God sees the big picture. Sometimes it calms my anxiety, but other times it makes it soar through the roof. I'm learning to accept that He knows what is best. And I'm learning that giving Him my will is the only thing I really have to offer Him for all He's given me. It's hard to accept. But God knows what He is doing. He doesn't make mistakes. I have no need to fear or worry. God has it all under control, and it's out of mine, and you know what-- I think that after a little practice--I can get used to this. 

After all, He is God.