Disconnect

There is a darkness

In the stillness

Of disconnect.

Everyone and everything

Surrounding you

Connects

But you remain empty.

Purge

I did something good today and took a step in the right direction. I've had to let go of a friend.

It hurts because they said they'd never leave, yet here I am again, alone. It's better this way for both of us, I think. I've hurt over it. In fact, I've been through the five stages of grief over it. Over and over again. 

And today, instead of burning everything in their memory, I packed it all up into a little cardboard box and took the memories to the goodwill to be used by others who can find them useful. And maybe sending them to the goodwill instead of the fiery furnace will be good karma. And maybe, just maybe, I can start healing this wound in my chest; fill its God shape with God, and be at peace. 

31 Days of Gaditude

1. My Therapist.
2. Prayers, unanswered, yet to be answered, and answered all the same.
3. Dogs that love to be loved, and the Humane Society.
4. My college roomate reunions and Drive-In Movies.
5. The temple.
6. Used Book Stores
7. Tom and Chee Mac and Chee Grilled Cheese sandwiches. And people to share them with
8. Patients and families that appreicate the work I do
9. Noodle Dogs
10. Book Binding, Paper Stores, and Friends who teach you new things
11. My little brother.
12. Nashville skyline sunrises on the way to work
13. Spiced Scones Nature Wick Candles
14. Friends who spend the entire day in target with you
15. My Great Aunt and Uncle
16. The ability to change
17. Hugs
18. Being on call and not getting called in
19. J.K. Rowling
20. Sundays
21. Love Notes
22. My Dad
23. A good nights sleep
24. Love notes
25. Friendsgiving in Kentucky
26. Peppermint Bark
27. Benadryl
28. Long drives
29. Thunder Storms
30. Little Ladies who lose their cars in parking lots and hitch a ride with you to find them